Peter Pettigrew

( but it was not your fault but mine • and it was your heart on the line • I really fucked it up this time • didn't I, my dear? )

Is it true that the Ministry employees aren't getting our usual time off because of everything that's been happening? I can't miss Christmas. My mum would have my head on a platter instead of the goose.

[OOC: Dated late Monday night]

[Private to MWPP]

Hey guys, I'm really really sorry and I feel like a total wanker, but I can't come along tomorrow night for Moony. I've just remembered that the stupid Ministry Christmas party is tomorrow night as well and I sort of have to go. Don't hate me...

Sorry again!

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Sometimes I really don't understand the point of these things. It seems like a lot of people like to use them to broadcast really boring stuff about their daily lives, or say things they know other people are going to be offended by or get themselves in trouble. Why would you do that? I just don't get it.

If I want to talk to my friends, I'll floo them, or apparate over. In the case of Prongs, Padfoot or Moony - I'll probably see them in a few days. I get the convenience factor, and they're pretty cool when you think about it. But, am I the only one who thinks about this stuff? I never know who to ward things to other than the guys...who can you really trust? Maybe I'm just paranoid. But, technically I'm a vigilante now, so there's definitely SOMEONE out there who'd like to snap my wand in half and have my head on a platter, right?

You know, a lot of people don't think I'm very bright, but I think I've got a lot more sense than most. And, for the record, I still hate Quidditch. I think it's downright dull, and I'm tired of having to read everyone's silly rants about it...isn't there anything else going on?

Not like I've got anything better to write about, but someone's life has to be more interesting than mine and doesn't include Quidditch.

Also. I wish girls didn't look at me like I was a garden gnome. But I don't think there's anything I can do about it.

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Sometimes I wonder. I really do.

What are we really getting into? Mary's a nice person. And looks what's happened to her.

This is scary, and sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who thinks about being scared enough to quit. What if the other side finds out who we are, who's in the Order? We'll be targeted...we'll be next. It just seems like there are really dangerous and powerful people behind all of this, and who am I?

Nobody. Expendable. And what happens if we lose?

I know the cause is right, and they're wrong and everything, but doesn't there come a point when it's just better to worry about yourself?

Does that make me a horrible person?

[Warded to MWPP]

I know constant vigilance is really serious and everything...it is. It definitely is. But #10 made pumpkin juice come out of my nose when I read it.

[Copied from Moody's list]
10. Don't trust animals. You don't know who they may be.

He should have added "Especially stray dogs. They have fleas."

I had an excellent day, if you're asking! Three words.

No. More. Owls.

I think this is a positive step forward for the Ministry and I'm all for it. I've been practising with my magic memo board thing (what exactly are they called? I never caught that...) and I've been sending memos to the Head of the Dept all evening.

...I've just had a thought. Do they notify people every time they get a memo? Like with a sound please let it not be a sound or a flashing charm or something? No one ever sends has sent me anything, so I don't know. Erm...this could be bad

Anyway. Tomorrow's also fish and chips day in the ministry cafeteria, so if this no-owl business catches on, this could well turn out to be one of the best weeks of the year!

[Warded to Prongs]

Happy belated Anniversary!

...do blokes say that to their mates?

[Warded to MWPP]

I'm going out on a limb here at the risk of sounding like a complete poof - I bloody miss you lot! Can we do something fun? Soon? I'm starting to feel like an actual adult with this 9 to 5 bollocks and I don't like it. And I think we could all use it. PLEASE?

Sweet Merlin, I'm starving.

Apparently they've had to close the cafeteria, and I haven't the time to go anywhere to find lunch. I would ask someone to send a sandwich or something, but I don't think adding an extra owl to this mess would be too brilliant.

I charmed by robes with a non-stick charm (the one my mum used to use on our pots and pans) - I'm not very good at laundering charms, and having to send my robes off every few days for cleaning is getting tiresome, not to mention expensive. Anyway, in case anyone's wondering, the charms are working and I haven't gotten a bit of owl poo on myself all day, only I keep slipping out of my chair and I did fall UP the stairs at one point. Small price to pay, I'd say.

On a positive note, we're halfway to Friday!

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I know I should feel bad about not paying my rent on time, but I don't.

I'm really short on money and those old biddies are charging me too much, anyway. I live in an attic for Godric's sake! If anyone else had the ability to turn into a rat and hide under their own shoe from a couple of meddlesome old bags after rent money, they would. So, I refuse to feel bad. They'll get their money...I just haven't got it right now. And until I do, they'll have a rodent guest in the house, and they can just wonder where I've gone off to.

[Warded to the Marauders]

Are we going to Longbottom's surprise party thing?

Well, apparently I needn't have gone in today at all since THE WHOLE OF MAGICAL MAINTENANCE DECIDED TO TAKE THE DAY OFF.

I HATE MY LIFE

In other news, don't bother coming up to Level 4 anytime soon if you'd like to smell like something other than feces.

Do we still have to go to work tomorrow?